Friday, May 10, 2013

Through these eyes

OK. So like this is my first attempt at a blog, has never done this before and unlike all the skilled writer and bloggers out there, I am simply gonna keep mine the way I like it, like me :-D               SO...I ask myself, what is it about blogging? Is it just putting "pen to paper" so to speak and sharing ones thoughts or is it to show off or make it known that I have a blog.....either way, I always found that little comfort in writing down what I never wanted to or just could not share via my lips...    
Daily I see things that make my mind spin, heart ache and hands want to reach out.
A simple drive to town, passing almost every robot one finds a beggar, street vendor or even a guy dishing out pamphlets for some silly scheme or foreign doctor promising good luck or better health or bringing back a lost lover (have to enquire about getting rid of a former one permanently lol ) .  I get to thinking, what goes through the minds of such people. I try placing myself in their shoes....in that burning hot sun, or ice cold wind....walking from car to car only to have a person roll up the windows or give that “eish nothing today” line with the hands just after they fumble around in the ashtray. Guilty, I’ve done that myself plenty a times and then the realisation hits me as I pull off.....what about the little amount of coins in the back pocket that could make a big difference in that person’s life?

The other day at the robot at one of our little India places, a woman dressed in full hijab was going car to car. Obviously been walking up and down for a long time with only a few coins collected here and there. As I drove by and handed her what I could, I stared at her. The face of a mother, distressed, tired, hungry, ashamed too as this is not the way she ever thought her life would lead her to. The lines of aging on her face, yet so young. The sun burns and the dry cracked lips tell a story that no one really has the time to listen to or understand. From the onset we judge what we see. Maybe she is a drug addict, or got kicked out of her home by parents for being loose or something or the other. What if this is just a woman born into poverty, struggling to see a bit of life, yearning for a warm bed, wanting a home. All these thoughts cloud my mind yet it won’t change her situation. Often we see such woman at intersections with kids, toddlers, babies of a few months old on their backs or in their hands. I know of one such baby that has actually grown up at a certain intersection. Now she must be around 6.
We raise our hands daily to our Lord asking him to save us from such a fate, offering a prayer for our passed loved ones, our saviors and prophets and for our family. Once in a while we will actually say “oh Lord shower your blessing and mercy upon those less fortunate than us, give them as we have...a simple home, food, shelter, warmth, a life and family”. Is that not a prayer we should recite daily. We tend to take what we have for granted in life. Yes we have this roof over our heads, a place to lay our hats down after a long day at work. A warm meal with a beautiful smile from a spouse that is always trying to please.

Ah yes, human nature at its best, or worst dare I say. I think today I will take the opportunity  to appreciate all I have in my world. My simple yet warm home, my loud and noisy yet precious kids, my stress inducing life threatening desk job, even my second hand car that I love especially on a downhill. Most of all I will be great full for my Lord granting a wife as amazing, precious and caring as mine. It’s as if I could never ask too much of her.









Like we always read and laugh at the saying's that a woman is made from the crooked rib of a man, or she is his backbone, or even behind every successful man is a woman ready to wack him on the noggin if he fails...mine is already all that...a pain in the behind. But she has her qualities like making her unique and loved.
Rounding of this story of mine due to time constraints, i have to admit...blogging feels good, sharing is better, charity can change someones life, family is needed and mankind needs to open up more than just eyes.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Love changes EVERYTHING!

I was only seventeen when she looked at me that way
Seems like yesterday
I was only foolin` `round but she stole my heart away
I`ve never been the same

I felt the strangest feeling like a raging fire it burned
She left I cried for weeks and
I can`t forget her or the lesson that I learned

Love changes, changes everything
Love makes you fly it can break your wings
Love changes, changes everything
Love makes the rules from fools to kings
Love changes, love changes everything

Then the years went rollin` by
I grew up and moved away
Had to earn my pay
Found another lover then
But my heart is sad to say
It only ended up the same way

And I wondered was I destined to spend my life alone
Oh girl you answered my question
This time it`s working you`ve given me new hope

Love changes, changes everything
Love makes you fly it can break your wings
Love changes, changes everything
Love makes the rules from fools to kings
Love changes, love changes everything

I`ve seen the way love shakes ya makes ya break ya
It`s got a power of it`s own

Love changes, changes everything
Love makes you fly it can break your wings
Love changes, changes everything
Love makes the rules from fools to kings
Love changes, love changes everything

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Hazy eyes.


Attu
My grandmother used to always say that in the olden days, when babies were born, they hands were closed, eyes shut for about a few weeks and the only sound made was the crying from the smack administered to their bottom by the doctor delivering. Today we have a new advanced breed of kids that come out prepared for this world, ready to grab open handed, staring at you with those beautiful little eyes wide open, and crying, moaning and groaning all in one minute. 

Dare I say the next generation will come out walking asking you if you’re the parent!


Evolution you say...problems I think.  I look around and see nothing but deterioration of this world.  From everything once established, fought for, died over, bleed for, conquered, thought, philosophized, argued, implemented and finally..Passed on...now just a thing of the past.
The youth of today are the number one example of what I speak of. Look around. We see school kids involved in everything from crime, corruption, to sex, drugs, murder and  LOL  disobedience. Boys under the age of 12 will be seen with not one but both ears pierced hanging with huge diamond shaped earrings imitating a famous rapper or pop star. Hair gelled back and up, clean shaven on the sides in a styles only lost tribes used to have....maybe them tribaloo’s had a fashion sense going that they never knew will hit the world in such a way one day. Clothes tighter, sleeves shorter, bulging muscles from steroids bought with money either stolen or given by parents to “quite them” or to get them out their hair.
A drive around the town and you will find youngsters well under the legal age driving their fathers R200-000 car with the their body’s hanging half out the window, cigarette in one hand and mouths open. Little girls all impressed by this go all weak in the knees. This is definitely the lost generation. The ones that grow up loosing respect faster than gained. You find them after school hanging around the shops on the corners, and in 10 years time will find them just there asking for a few rand’s and still hitting on the girls. A pity
I find my thoughts diverted to another part of the world, a place where poverty is rife, a place where kids don’t get the opportunity to be kids, rather they have to be either adults or conform to a standard and way not by choice but by force. But thinking about that will make my thoughts run wild, and this few lines I intend to jot down will turn to novels. 


Mallu-pie

My daughter  often see’s poor kids and expresses her feelings to me. I’m proud of her as she opens up to me, telling me how lucky she is and how she appreciates the little she has compared to them. This shows me that she has the confidence in me and can speak to me. This confidence is built by a parent. Something not many parents care to build with their kids thus loose total control of them.

Eina!
A child needs to be brought up with proper values.  If not, the generations forth will never know or be the same. We have the assumption that we need to look after and hold on tighter to our daughters but in fact its the sons we need to keep that eye on. Little men once out of hand or lost on their path of adulthood, become destructive thus destroying not only their lives but all around. We find out youngsters on drug. The most common problem in our society. Yet we don’t take the time to assist them and understand why they have turned that way.  We offer help and spend the thousands of rand’s to get them help, yet they return to this life. Another topic that can go bad either way for or against a parent. I was once a kid, I seen with my own eyes the effects of a broken home, of a poor home, of unstable parents and of rich families. It all lies in the values and upbringing.  Sitting on this bed hitting this keyboard I glance at my kids and promise myself that I shall always strive to be the best father, friend, body guard and teacher to them

Daddy's girl
. Have to also think about investing in my AK47 now that my eldest is going on 10.Everything that affects her affects me! It doesn't matter what the problem is, in her life and as long as I breathe i will be there to help her with it no matter what it takes outta me! Her pains I will share, and when she cries, so will I.
I am thankful to Almighty for all he has given me but also ask him to guide not just my hand but my kids too. After all, they carry your name, values and respect to the generations ahead.  This to the parents out there doing their duties, WELL DONE! And to those not, you will pay the price and learn.